learning to love again

"how do you explain love? what is it? - my communications professor asked our lecture class this question, then randomly called on people to explain it. every answer they gave, he somehow criticized in order to prove his point, that love really cannot be explained. we know it exists. we can feel both it's presence and absence. but how can you describe it? 

recently in my life, i complicated the most perfect Love there is. i was getting frustrated with myself, my ministry, and who i was supposed to be pouring into. it also didn't help that i felt as if no one else really got it. and i know that's not true, but it was the silly way i felt. i felt as if i wasn't showing my perfect Lord that i loved Him, because i wasn't being active. but in reality, i wasn't showing my perfect Lord love because i was trying to hard to be active to show him love. see, its rather complicated. something that doesn't really need to be. 

i think there's a reason we can't explain love, or joy. there is a reason why everyone has a different definition, a different outlook on something that we have all felt and all know exists. i think it's because it's the closest thing we can associate to our Father, who gives us never ending love, joy, and grace. using words, any words, just simply do not do the justice of defining love, or my God. the One who loves me more than i could ever grasp. 

i've been falling back in love with my God. i let my heart rejoice in His love. i let myself sit and soak in the peace that settles on my heart in the stillness of the chapel. and He's been with me. He wants me to feel His love as much as He wants to feel my love for Him. He gave me a weekend of laughter, of fellowship, of late nights, and even threw in the news that we had a new brother in Christ. He's been pouring His love out on me, and i've finally got it into my heart that part of loving someone, is accepting their love. and the same goes for my Best Friend, my Main Squeeze that never wants me to forget how much i am loved. all He needs from me is to hear that i love Him too, and He will do the rest. i am boldly confident in that. 


i love you too. 

"i'm in love, i'm in love and i don't care who knows it!"




m.