you're hot and you're cold

greetings from da burg. the weather here is bipolar. honestly. today its freezing, yesterday i was getting warm sitting on the top of chapel. MAKE UP YOUR MIND. but i'm lovin today. i've gotten past all my classes and my dreadful parts of the week, and now the weekend is ahead. this weekend we're goin to RAS for some classic workcrew weekend action, and i'm stoked. it's gonna be great. but that's in the future, so i'll focus on the now/past.

this week i was thoroughly blessed with the opportunity to help out with Giles club. it was sweet, and it was exactly what i expected. once you've been around YL for awhile, you've kind of got it all figured out. and that's not confident, because i don't consider myself an expert at all, but things pretty much operate the same way. what i loved about it though, was it showed me what it looks like to be in charge. what it looks like to really lead from the college perspective. i've been really blessed with my experiences leading. i've put together clubs and have been running them with other campaigners for two years, but i've always taken for granted that my girls are all in my area. that makes contact work freakin easy. if you're on the Giles team, it's thirty minutes to get there. thirty minutes. an hour of driving to get there and back. thats a lot of time, and money, just to get there. obviously that's not an ideal situation, but what i loved about going to Giles was that i realized that it's okay with me. honestly, Christ and those kids are so worth it. they are SO worth it. i've also found out in the past couple of days that there are only about 15 spots open for placement of freshmen. and with 50 kids in LT, that's not a lot. and even though i want to lead so much, even though i've never felt more on track with my walk, i'm at complete peace about the whole situation. why stress out? those who should lead, will get placed. those that are called to something else, won't. big deal. the Lord will use me in anything and everything He has planned for me, and odds are it'll blow my mind regardless of what it is. and i'm pumped for that. i just kind of wish everyone in LT would calm down. there is such a competitive vibe going down, and i really do not approve. it's as if everyone is trying to prove how "holy" and "deep" and "mature" they are, as if they have to prove their faith. i don't like it. live out your heart, and your faith should show through. it's not a competition, its a calling. it's making me chuckle, but i really would love if everyone would just relax and be real. and not that intimidating real, but genuine, sincere, selfless real.
my bstud is pretty real, and i like that. aren't they cool/gorgeous? yeah, i get to hang out with them on a regular basis.

anyway. friends, be you. please? just be you. be real. you don't have to prove yourselves, the Lord knows your heart and has a plan so much wilder than you could ever imagine. and it's going to be the most adventurous wonderful thing of you life.

oh and don't forget...

"child, you're forgiven and loved." -- Jimmy Needham

m.